I'm Still Around And Randomness

Well, it has been a week since my last post.

I am working on making my life more organized a little bit at a time. I really need to be on a better schedule, but this is very hard for me. I am a person that would prefer to just "go with the flow!" This does not work well with all that needs to be accomplished and things do not usually "flow" well around here when I am in that mode.

Isaiah 26:3-4 has really ministered to me this week. I really need God's Peace right now. I need peace in my home and in my heart and mind.

Isaiah 26:3-4 (King James Version)
Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.

Trust ye in the LORD for ever: for in the LORD JEHOVAH is everlasting strength.

I am working on keeping my mind stayed on my Lord. I cannot do this in my own strength. I continually ask Him to help me with keeping my mind stayed on Him.

There was something that happened this week that I was not having my mind on the Lord at that time. Suddenly the Lord brought it to my attention that I was trying to take care of things in my own strength. I said Thank You Lord for reminding me and I asked for his guidance in the situation. Things soon got better. I need to remember to invite Him into every detail of my life!

Other happenings:

I took my son Matthew to the doctor yesterday. He has not been feeling well for about 2 weeks. It started with something that was like the flu. It seemed like he was starting to get better, but suddenly his fever came back and his cough got a lot worse. It ended up that he has pneumonia. They gave him 2 shots of some kind of antibiotic and also gave him a prescription for home. Today he seems to be doing some better. Please pray that it doesn't spread to anyone else!

On labor day we took the children to Chick-fil-A for dinner. They were giving away a free chicken sandwich to everyone that day. I also had several coupons for free kids meals. We only had to buy drinks for those of us who didn't get a kids meal and we bought fries to share. This meal was very inexpensive for our family.

My daughter Rebekah started working at Chick-fil-A a few weeks ago. She really likes it there and so far it has been a good experience. The atmosphere there really seems pleasant. It is also refreshing that they play Christian music. My 2 older boys have worked at other fast food restaurants and the environment has not been quite as pleasant. I pray that it continues to go well for Rebekah and that it will be a positive experience.

That is about it for now! I am off to prepare for our Wednesday night activities. We always have to eat dinner early on Wednesdays so that we can get to Church on time. We have a 45 minute drive to get to Church.

Blessings,

 

Discouraged But Hoping In The Lord!

Life takes so many twists and turns doesn't it? Without God in my life, I know that I would never make it.

I shared recently that I was dealing with some anger issues over Faith being gone. I wish I could report that everything was better, but it is pretty much the same. I also feel a bit discouraged with some things in my life.

After losing Faith, I have experienced different times that all of a sudden things just seem to get worse. It hits me like a ton of bricks. It just seems to come out of nowhere. Sometimes it last a few days, some times a few weeks.

School starting this year has been difficult. First of all, I really did not want to start, I am always really sad for summer to be over. Some of the children were excited to start and some of them were not quite as excited!

By the end of our first week, one by one, most of the children started coming down with something that resembles the flu. By the weekend, hubby and I were not feeling so well either. Fortunately I seem to have a milder version so I have been able to still function.

Today is the first day for most of the children to be back doing their schoolwork. I guess the beauty of homeschooling is that you can be flexible. I love that I do not have to wake up real early and get the children off to school. I actually enjoy having them all home with me(usually) and I would miss them terribly if I sent them off.

With that being said, I have lost my zeal for homeschooling. I believe we are called to do this and I want the passion back. I know God has called us to do this and I want to do it to the best of my ability for Him. Isn't that how we should approach everything we do?

Right now I am finding it hard to juggle everything that I need to do. I have 10 children ranging in age from 23 down to 4 with 10 unique sets of needs. I have a husband who needs me too. A house that needs to be cleaned and kept up. Meals that need to be fixed and the dishes cleaned. Mountains of laundry that need to be washed on a daily basis. I could go on and on!

I do have the children help with some of this, but somewhere along the way I have failed to continue to train them to do more. I am praying for God to show me how to train them better and how to reshape their attitudes. By the way, Hubby does help out a great deal, so I would never complain about that!

I feel that I need to do a better job at my alone time with the Lord. Right now I actually feel that I need to work overtime on making this happen. I am nothing without Him and I desperately need Him. I am not morning person, and I find it very difficult to get up early. When I do, I hardly know who I am, so it would be very hard for me to understand the scriptures. If I do not get up earlier than the children, then it is very difficult to get it done. They sure like to talk a lot!

This blog has been a great outlet for me and I have met a lot of great ladies here. I appreciate your friendships. Many of you have experienced loss also, so we share a common bond that many others do not understand. I would actually like to be able to post more often, but that seems to be difficult. My family takes priority over everything else, besides the Lord. I am not planning on going anywhere, but if you don't hear from me for awhile, you'll know that I am very busy with my family.

My prayer request would be that first God would heal the anger that I am having. Second, he would renew my passion for homeschooling and give me some new energy. Also that I can train the children better and that I can go to bed earlier and get up earlier and have my alone time with Him, alone! That I can get my priorities straight!

If you are a mom to many could you leave me a comment and share with me how you spend time with the Lord.

I would like to leave you with 2 scriptures that I have shared with you before, but they seem to be the theme of my life! They really minister to me.

Isaiah 40:31 (New International Version)
but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Proverbs 3:5-6 (New International Version)
Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.