Monday, September 28, 2009

11 Months

It has been 11 months since we said goodbye to Faith. Wow, it is so hard to believe that almost a year has passed by!

When Faith passed away, it seems as though life came to halt. I knew life had to go on, but it was difficult. When I went out in public I would often think "Don't these people know that my baby died?"

Life has gone on and we are doing well, for the most part. We miss Faith a great deal and there is an empty spot that will always be there.

Micah, our 4 year old will often talk to me about Faith. Just out of the blue he will ask me questions about her. The one question he has asked many times is "Why did my baby sister die?" This always brings tears to my eyes. He has also asked me a few times if we can get another baby. I told him he would have to ask Jesus for another baby.

Last night Micah asked me a question that I have often pondered myself. He asked, "Why is Jesus taking so long to give us a baby?" I did not want to explain to him that we may never have another baby. Right now I would like for him to keep praying for that baby! We will just have to wait and see what God has in store.

I love his innocence and his boldness to talk about Faith. It can be hard sometimes but it also brings me great joy that he remembers her.

When I was in Virginia in July I was able to see her Stone for the first time. It was the first time I had been back since November when we buried her. Here is a couple of pictures that I took from that day. We have removed the last name for privacy reasons.

This is 5 of the children. Micah was with us also, but would he would not cooperate for the picture. As you can see the sun was in their eyes.

Dear Sweet Faith, we miss you more than words can describe. We wish so much that you were sharing your life here with us, but we find comfort that you are Safe In The Arms Of Jesus! We look forward to the day we are reunited with you! We love You!



pam said...

So sorry for your pain. I wish I could say a word to encourage you, but I know God does daily. What a blessing that your son remembers and asks about her. I hope God will bless your womb again, according to his perfect will.

croleyc69 said...

Wow what a great post and such a neat idea to remove the last name. That's so neat that your son remembers. I had two miscarriages & my son talks alot about the babies. He sometimes sits outside on a pretty day and looks at the sky & talks to them. I hope God will bless you with a another child again if it's in his plan. I also like seeing you all together at the gravesite. {{HUGS}}

Holly said...

Faith is so beautiful. She is such a little angel!!

I have often thought the same thing when out in public. I see people walking around with their babies and I want them to know I have a baby too!! I'm glad you got to go visit Faith's grave and see her marker. I love the little lambs. So sweet!!

Ange said...


My heart, love, thoughts and prayers are with you. How precious it is that your little son remembers and talks so frequently about his baby sister. The blood of family that runs through our veins is more powerful than we sometimes realize. I pray comfort for you today and for the days to come. I admire you so much...the way you love and encourage others in the midst of your own pain and disappointments. May the Lord reward and bless you more and more!

Sending ((hugs)