Monday, June 29, 2009

Eight Months

It is hard to believe that it has been eight months since we said goodbye to Faith. Time seems to keep passing by all too quickly. Sometimes I sit and wonder what she would be doing now. Time marches on and so does life. My heart continues to heal. God is still on the throne and I continue to love Him and strive to honor him in all that I do. Faith, we miss you so much and wish you were here with us, but rejoice that you are with your Heavenly Father!

It can be so complicated sometimes when someone asks you how many children you have. I am not sure how to answer. I don't want my missing children to be forgotten. I also don't want it to be awkward for others if I tell them I've had miscarriages and a stillborn daughter. Sometimes I do not have the energy to talk about it, so I just say 10. Saying that you have 10 children already has enough shock factor in itself for most people.

Today I met a lady that had 11 children . Five were hers and six were here husbands and she was expecting. She was shocked to find that all 10 of ours were biologically both of ours. I didn't even go into the other pregnancies. She is homeschooling some of her children and wanted to ask me some more questions but ran out of time. Hopefully we will have a chance to talk some more soon.

Four of my children are participating in a musical at our church this summer. It is called Moses the Musical. This week they have practices Monday- Wednesday in the morning to work on learning the choreography. It was hard to drag them out of bed. I am pretty sure that we will need a nap today. Leaving the house at 8 a.m. is quite a stretch for us!

Yesterday our church had our annual picnic. Hubby and I were not too excited to go and sit in the Hot sun. I think that we have become addicted to the Air Conditioning and don't consider a day sitting in the hot ( high 80's) weather a day of fun. We went, bit our lip, and tried to be cheerful. Our children wanted to go badly, so we decided to give it a try. They had tents set up to help shield us from the sun. There was actually a breeze blowing, so all in all, it wasn't too bad.

This park was a great place for a church picnic. There was plenty of space and it was a nice setting. The kids enjoyed the playground and the inflatables that our church rented. We had good food,but the children especially enjoyed the snacks. Moon pies were a big hit with many. So we will see if we go next year, well maybe!




Holly said...

Time passes quickly indeed. It has been 3 months since Carleigh was born. It seems like so long ago. I wonder too what she would be like and what milestones she would be hitting. I miss being able to nurse her like I did her sister.

I have an internal struggle when people ask me how many children I have. Because the question that always comes next is 'how old are they?' People just feel awkward when you tell them that some of your children are in Heaven instead of on earth.

Kelly @ The Beauty of Sufficient Grace said...

Praying for you as you miss sweet Faith...I can just finally pull up your blog. I am heading to your Walking With You post now. So sorry that I wasn't able to comment on it right away. I have visited your blog everyday and haven't been able to pull up any text until today. =(